Notice: I AM STILL ALIVE!!! I just was in Venezuela 2 weeks and afterwards the school started again and we wrote maths and physics. Today we wrote the physics test and it really is amazing how bad our class is this year, including me. Oh god, I'm so happy when the next holidays are starting (in february, I won't survive this moment...). School is so terrible this year, it's really shocking. I hope this will change next year. Venezuela was wonderful, the Salto Angel as the highest waterfall of the world really is gigantic, and the orinoco-delta was just beautiful with all the monkeys and parrots we had around. We were in a small camp just built near the river, no civilisation around, just jungle. And tons of mosquitos... The tour took 8 days, the other 7 days were reserved for relaxing on Isla Magarita, enjoying the sun (sunburn included) and the all-inclusive-meals. I grew 3 cm just because I ate so much. ;)

It's 23:02 now and I'm sitting in front of the computer, thinking of the day: Woke up at 6 am, got into clothes, ate something, brushed my teeth, welcomed my daddy, who came back from a short trip to Hong Kong, went to school, hat two hours of math, some other boring stuff, an hour young economics meeting, went home, arrived there at 2 pm, ate something again (seminola pudding), practised piano for an hour, went to piano lessons from 4 pm to 4:30 pm, stayed in town buying something for my parents christmas present, went home and then back to town, listened to the schools christmas concerto from 7 pm to 11 pm, enjoyed the evening, can't stand Feliz Navidad anymore, adore the schools big band, am awfully tired, have school tomorrow and falls into bed after brushing my teeth when finished this entry.

Good Night! :)

Today we decorated our christmas tree (candles, a treetopper, christmas tree balls, bells). Nothing important happened, we didn't even drink tea and ate cookies though it's fourth Advent. Hmmm... I really hope there happens more interesting stuff tomorrow.

Hmmm...nothing. ;) I shoveled tons of snow (I HATE SNOW! ) and I've been on the computer, I watched a part of "Citizen Kane" and I realized that I'm running this Livejournal for a week now. Celebration! XD

As I hope you've realized, there's a new design now, a new proverb and everything changed a little bit. I like it better, hope you too. ;)

...countdown is running. School today was as usual: Boring... Two hours of physical education (I hate it, I really hate it), two hours of biology (Hmmm...well...quite fine), english (yay, everybody loves english! At least I do. ) and french (we watched a really cute film). After that we had meeting for the school newspaper (I'm assistant chief editor), which was quite fun, except of some small children always bothering us. OK, it wasn't that bad. ^^

Then I cleaned my fish tank, inventing a perfect method to avoid grass-like amazonas water plants to always float on top when dug out by the catfish. Hmmm, now I hope they'll accrue there where they should - in the sand, on the ground. Not floating along the water surface, stealing the other plants light. ;)

My mother and my other siblings were away (shopping in Munich, my older brother is visiting his girlfriend from Austria), so I went into IRC, having a very nice talk with Ceceil and Final. XD

When my mother and my sister came home from Munich, we drank tea and ate ciabatta, watching a bit TV along the way.

Well, and now I'm here, writing. ^^

...comme le francais dit. :D Today was a nice Thursday, we wrote the chemistry test and I felt rather good, now I'm quite interested in the results. I went to homepage course after school (we're administrating the school homepage there) and being at home I did nothing else but eating, being at the PC and watching TV (right now: Tomorrow Never Dies). ^^

And: Yay, tomorrow's friday and right now only 6 school days are left until christmas and our vacation in Venezuela! :>

A happy 16. birthday to Ceceil/cyberZ74! :)

Well, one and a half weeks left until school ends...I'll do it, don't ever loose hope...

OK, we are writing a test in chemistry tomorrow and I really don't know what I'm on to, but I'll see...don't get nervous, don't get nervous... I'm getting nervous! Well, enough of that, a short summary of today:

School day was quite ok, boring as everytime, but ok. When I got home, I wanted to lay down on our couch just for five minutes or something to just rest a bit, but then I got sleepy and stayed there for about one hour. Not good. XD Well, then I started learning chemistry until 5 pm. I just did some story writing then, went then to a course at our school calles "Freies Schreiben" (independent writing), where you discuss and critizice texts you've written at home. It was great fun and took about two hours, starting at 7 pm. I read a story about a murder in London and everybody loved it, so I am happy right now. ^^ Well, let's see if I'm so happy after the chemistry test tomorrow...

...until christmas eve. And I still have to make some presents. ^^

Hmmm...tuesdays are lazy days. We have two lessons physics, two lessons religion, a lesson english and a lesson chemistry. Physics and chemistry were really boring, religion was absolutely bothering and english was quite cool, at last one nice lesson today. There really wasn't anything exciting in the afternoon, I played piano and watched TV in the evening. And of course I used my computer. ^^

How can a government be so blockheaded to support and to legalize death penalty? I think that's something a german can never understand. There is nothing more to be said.

...oh my god, I'm really sinful. The really bad thing is, that it's all true. XD

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	High
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	High
Lust:	High
Pride:	Very High

Discover Your Sins - Click Here

Today was really boring. OK, the first two lessons were dropped and we could stay at home - well, just the first lesson if I'm accurate, but I stayed away from school both lessons anyway... We wrote a test in physics and I really wasn't this good, but I hate electronics in school. There's nothing more boring, I think...

After that I had one hour of talking about a company-founding-project we have at school called "JUNIOR", at least we have a business plan now. Well, we should have our first annual general meeting in decembre, I think we won't catch that.

Coming home I had about half an hour for lunch, a piece of cake and coffe, then playing an hour piano, been driven to piano lessons at 4 pm, having half an hour piano lessons (BOOOORINNNNG!, but at least he was satisfied with my practising, which consisted of the half hour from 3:30 pm to 4 pm...) and waited in the car then while my mother went shopping. Being back at home at about 5 pm, I directly walked to the computer, being interrupted by drinking tea and watching TV. Well, here I am now. Don't expect there would happen anything interesting in the next time...

Veeery interesting - it matches 100% perfectly (like the "how you're attracitve"-part XD ), though I'm hoping the love-part isn't true. ^^

Your Power Color Is Indigo

At Your Highest: You are on a fast track to success - and others believe in you. At Your Lowest: You require a lot of attention and praise. In Love: You see people as how you want them to be, not as how they are. How You're Attractive: You're dramatic flair makes others see you as mysterious and romantic. Your Eternal Question: "Does This Work Into My Future Plans?"

Sundays are always like the carrot and the stick: You have a nice day, usually relaxing, though boring, but you know exactly there's school tomorrow...

Well, because it seems to be quite popular to post a survey in your journal, here's one of me:

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Fabian Müller
Birthday:	05. July 1990
Birthplace:	Grünstadt / Palatia / Germany
Current Location:	Starnberg / Bavaria / Germany
Eye Color:	hmmm... some kind of blue-green mix
Hair Color:	blonde
Height:	172 cm at the moment, still growing. ^^
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right handed
Your Heritage:	Germany
The Shoes You Wore Today:	big fat boots because of the snow
Your Weakness:	I'd like to kill a dragon. XD
Your Fears:	Hmmm...to have to go to school eternally...
Your Perfect Pizza:	Just a pizza magherita with large amounts of mushrooms and pepper *munch*
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Hmmm...this year has ended in two weeks...lets see...maybe saving the world? :D
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	;) <- I couldn't live without smileys...
Thoughts First Waking Up:	Have...to...kill...alarm...clock...
Your Best Physical Feature:	brain. XD
Your Bedtime:	something between 21:30 - 23:00 o'clock on school days
Your Most Missed Memory:	my memory ^^
Pepsi or Coke:	Coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Wendy's
Single or Group Dates:	Neither nor until now
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Snapple
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Both
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Cappuccino
Do you Smoke:	no
Do you Swear:	Sometimes
Do you Sing:	nearly all the time... ;)
Do you Shower Daily:	no
Have you Been in Love:	I am right at the moment
Do you want to go to College:	yes
Do you want to get Married:	sure
Do you belive in yourself:	more than in anyone else. ^^
Do you get Motion Sickness:	no
Do you think you are Attractive:	hmmm...if you ignore the acne and the brace, yes. XD
Are you a Health Freak:	NO!!!
Do you get along with your Parents:	hmmm...yes.
Do you like Thunderstorms:	When I'm inside, yes. ;)
Do you play an Instrument:	Piano since 8 years
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	no
In the past month have you Smoked:	no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	if chocolate counts to drugs, yes. ^^
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	I never had a date my whole life. ;)
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	no
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	I hate Oreos... :P
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	I've never eaten Sushi so far, but it's surely worth a try, give me some! XD
In the past month have you been on Stage:	yes, reading and explaining a poem in old german. ;)
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	no
Ever been called a Tease:	no. XD
Ever been Beaten up:	no, well, nearly, just a little bit...
Ever Shoplifted:	no!
How do you want to Die:	hmmm...I want to be immortal and allmighty! XD
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	godlike emperor ;)
What country would you most like to Visit:	Hmmm...let's see...I've never been to the Maldives, that would be nice. :>
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	doesn't matter
Favourite Hair Color:	hmmm...blonde would be nice, but naturally blonde. ^^
Short or Long Hair:	doesn't matter, too
Height:	bigger or smaller than me. XD
Weight:	something under 100 kilos would be quite nice. ;)
Best Clothing Style:	either glamourous or casual
Number of Drugs I have taken:	none
Number of CDs I own:	hmmm...something about 40, but much more on my pc
Number of Piercings:	zero
Number of Tattoos:	none
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	well, unfortunately you can't do the done undone ;)
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Just a warning note to the careless reader: I wrote the following text in religious study at school and I was kind of totally angry at our teacher and the really stupid stuff we made the last lessons. And we had to write a text she wouldn't read. So I just wrote down what I mean regarding the theme fault and sin. Here are my notes:

I don't see actions as fault just because of others thinking like that, as for instance the christian church. Every of my acts, every act at all, can be motivated and consequentail her correctnes. Fault is nothing different than an illusion of mankind to protect itsself and to distance from assumed bad events. You could see her as an "invention" of the church, too, to give a person a reason to abide the closeness to God. Being guilty means nothing different than resisting societal dogmas and then telling himself to have done a mistake, a sin, to justify his act in front of the society. You will find nowhere a clear definition of "fault", which is caused by the fact that fault as a factual classification isn't existant, furthermore an argument for the dogmatic illusion of fault and sin.

As I said, I was quite in a rage, but mostly I still agree to the text. I am already strained about your comments to this - granted - delicate topic!

Eva Péron, the Katherine Hepburn and Princess Diana of Argentina in person, better known as Evita, is a very good example for how a celebrity can form something like a religion of it's own, some kind of cult. Famous persons taking in the places of saints is nothing new in the history of mankind: If Louis XIV., who wished to be godlike, or Madonna, who is godlike for many fans, from Jeanne d'Arc to Che Guevara: It is a well known fact that people simply search for someone they can adore, someone they can set their hopes into and someone they can load their sorrows on. Just someone understanding. People need or at least wish a personification of god for themselves to make the unbelievable real. And People need an idol. If a person is not strong enought to believe in a shadowlike god who never shows in person, it takes someone or even more than one persons, in first line celebrities, to adore. This is shown in the medievial enshrinement of saints, in the adoration of absolutistic kings, in the worship for dictators and big politicians in the 19th and 20th century and in the modern cult about pop- and filmstars. The deep wish after a leader for his live is ankered in every person, and if there is no God because of growing atheism in our society, why don't take people everybody knows and let them bath in divination? Just like Gregor Brand, a german lyricist and aphorist, said: "Some intelligent People are more interested in 'arche-books' than in archetypes. You can live without 'arche-books', but you can't without archetypes."

Horace Greenmore was a honest and respectable man in the little New Enland town he lived in. His life looked the same since some 60 years: Every monday he made his shopping, greeting the old Mrs Heastcane and railing about the youth of today. On tuesdays he usually went walking in the park, sitting on a cold park bank, honking in his moustache and looking after the ducks in the city pond. On wednesdays he usually had a hipochondric cold and went to the doctor, who always described him the same medicine - and Mr Greenmore asked the same questions as usual, if it really would help, if there would be no risks, if he had to pay for it. On thursdays the cold usually went away and Mr Greenmore called the doctor to assure everythings fine with that. This thursday, the cold didn't go away. On fridays he ate fish and read the newspaper, mumbling about the democrats and appreciating the newest election results of the republicans. On saturdays he always listened to the live transmission of some classic music sent by the broadcast. This saturday he layed in bed, his state of health got worse, but he didn't wanted to tell the doctor. Real men don't have such bad colds. On sundays he went to the church listening to what is moral and what is sin, usually driving there by taxi. This sunday he went to the church, carried in a coffin.

 

After this short story written by myself - think about it, the text has many conclusions - I would like to welcome you here and introduce myself. First of all: Welcome, it's an honour to me having you here at this Journal. I will write about religious and ethic themes, always with a little ironic or pathetic tone, things that are important to me, things that caught my attention and things that are historic. Now to point two: I am a 15 year old boy from Starnberg (near Munich) / Germany, but mainly grown up in Hong Kong from 1996 to 2000. Due to me being a German native speaker there can be grammatical errors or wrong expressions. I'd like to excuse me for that. And I am attaching importance to good behavior, a fine speech and sometimes a grave choose of words (If I'm not in my cynical mood)... Oh, by the way, I'm a great fan of classical music, just to show my character. Now have fun with this journal, I'm hoping to get together some quantitative and qualitative entries for you!

 

 - Fabian